Note: This book was sent to me by NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. This, in no way, affects my opinion on this book or my review.
My Rating: ★★★★☆
Genre(s): Young Adult
Format: eBook from NetGalley
Release Date: March 5, 2019
Plot: Victoria Parker knew her dad’s behavior toward her was a little unusual, but she convinced herself everything was fine—until she found herself locked out of the house at 3:00 a.m., surrounded by flashing police lights.
Now, dumped into a crowded, chaotic foster home, Victoria has to tiptoe around her domineering foster mother, get through senior year at a new school, and somehow salvage her college dreams . . . all while keeping her past hidden.
But some secrets won’t stay buried—especially when unwanted memories make Victoria freeze up at random moments and nightmares disrupt her sleep. Even worse, she can’t stop worrying about her stepsister Sarah, left behind with her father. All she wants is to move forward, but how do you focus on the future when the past won’t leave you alone?
- I couldn’t put this book down.
- Barthelmess took a hard subject and turned it into a book that I wanted to keep reading.
- It gave an honest insight into the foster care system.
- It had a happy ending, after all of the emotional blows that were thrown at Victoria.
- Look at that cover!
- Nothing really, it was such a great book.
My Thoughts: I went into this book blindly. I liked the cover and the title, and only read the first tiny bit of the synopsis. And I’m honestly glad that I did, because I didn’t form any opinions on what I thought was happening in Victoria’s home or anything like that before I started reading the book.
Being inside Victoria’s head, you get a glimpse of what it’s like to be inside the head of an abuse survivor. The grounding, the flashbacks, the blame and guilt, and finally the acceptance. It’s all there. I felt that Victoria’s character was so true-to-life and relatable that she almost seemed like a real person.
My favorite thing about this book was the slow acceptance – Victoria realizing that she was not at fault. coming to terms with living in a new town, and becoming closer to Connie. I’m so glad that this book ended on a good note, because it was so emotional and so hard to read at times. Victoria deserved that happy ending.
I would recommend this book to both kids in the foster system and readers who prefer more gritty YA.
The only reason this book didn’t get 5 stars is because I don’t think I’ll read it again. It was fantastic, though.